You stupid bitch

Mother: Some guy called and asked for you (my Mother says in a fucking panicked voice like I just fucking raped, gee, mother, calm the fuck down).

Me: Uh?

Mother: He sounded like that (I couldn't hear what the rest of what she had to fucking say, it was all rushed like she was fucking crying. Calm the fuck down)--

Me: What are you talking about?

Mother: Don't lie he said that-- (Calm the fuck down.)

Me: Ugh, okay, I do know what you're talking about.

Mother: How'd you meet this guy?

Gee, mother. It was on Friday when you were supposed to come and fucking pick me up from school but instead decided a baseball game with your husband was instead more important. Fuck you. Now that my fucking personal life has slapped you in the face, it really all of a sudden "just matters". You stupid bitch. What about when I was a 4-year old girl? You were never there. Or when I was 1,2,3,4,5,6 years old? All of a sudden when I've come of age it "all of a sudden matters". Well guess what bitch: too little too late. Fucking asshole. I wish you'd just fucking but your fucking ass out of my business.

Today she called my Father about me "not being able to handle myself in boarding school". Shut up you stupid bitch. You know no matter what happens, when it happens, or however it happens, your fucking ass will still and always support me financially. You should realize, you fucking bitch, that you are too little too late about worrying about me. Fucking stupid bitch.

I'd just wish my Mother would go worry her fucking ass about the two other kids she has and about her alcoholic problem. Stupid bitch. She wants to "act like a responsible parent" but would a "responsible parent" drink right in front of her daughter while she drives, drink and drive, and ask her own daughter to buy her alcoholic drinks? You stupid bitch.

Cup-A-Joe

I am so tired right now. I think it's due to the fact that I woke up at 10AM and didn't have anything to eat 'till 4:30PM. Not a real healthy way to take care of your body. I can feel my bones weakening by the minute. Ahaha. I now think I know how Nicole Richie feels with the only cigarettes and coffee diet.

I really should stop smoking. I just can't stop. I started smoking when I had a deadline to fill all these boarding school applications out and was sooo stressed. It was horrible at how stressed I was. And guess what? Didn't even get into one motherfucking school. I seriously need to be a little smart. Luckily I've applied to two more schools in Switzerland. I am really crossing my fingers that I'll get into one of them. *Hopefully*

I only have one more month of school left, which is something I am fucking looking forward to. I am sick and tired of being so worn out in the middle of the afternoon after the previous night of cigarettes and Pellegrino. I am so sick and tired of seeing my teachers haggish faces and dyke homo bitch science teacher. I am sick and tired of all it! I just want to get away! Why can't I just call in sick for the whole month until I graduate? Sure my grades may turn to shit but life is more important than fucking grades!

Oh, and today when I was taking the cable car to a teen'zine meeting I had to stand up because there were no more seats left. So I'm standing right above this German blonde girl. She was a fucking bitch. She kept giving me dirty looks and whenever I'd move she'd stare at me in disgust as if she's never seen a Chinese girl before. I was so fucking pissed. This is San Francisco you stupid motherfucker. Learn some motherfucking respect you fucking whore. So once I was at my stop I gave that German bitch the finger. She was still staring at me in disgust. Fucking German hog whores. Those bitches are so fat they need to loose some weight. She's probably just jealous because German men are taking up w/ Chinese women in large numbers. It's not like I condone interracial German/Chinese relationships, I'm just saying she's jealous because her ass is so fat!

I hate fucking German tourists. Tell all those Adolf Hitler speaking motherfuckers to go back to Germany where they belong. Bunch of motherfucking 3-world country poor folk whose only claim to fame was Adolf Hitler being a stupid and crazy motherfucker. I fucking hate Germans.

Than I went to Borders to do my fucking homework and was so tired as shit. I had a cup of decaf coffee, but I don't think it helped my tiredness. I think it's because I hadn't eaten since 10AM! Which is something not sooo not good to do. So while I was downstairs in the lobby area taking a smoke break, I come back up to find someones phone number scrawled on a fucking piece of paper. I think some mutherfucking gweilo I saw earlier smiling at me gave me his number. Fuck that. Gross mutherfucker. I don't do men who don't have the fucking decency to even fucking give me their number in person. Stupid motherfuckers.

I'm at cup-a-joe right now. And right now in front of me is this cute Chinese girl talking to this I-dunno-if-he's-a-homo Italian guy. Who do Europeans have to be so fucking meterosexual? stupid motherfuckers. Why can't I figure out if you're straight or your gay? It's so fucking aggravating. You dumb fucks.

It seems to be the Italian dude in the front counter at Cup-A-Joe on Leavenworth and Sutter in San Francisco is flirting with everything that walks by. Not to mention the fat blonde White hog he was winking at just about a half-an-hour ago. I am so disgusted. It seems to be Italian men find anything that is blonde attractive. Fat gweipos. Disgusting.

I really should be doing my homework. Mrs. Hilst (the principal) at my school scolded me the other day for getting a 12% on my Science test. Oh fucking boo-hoo! I don't give a shit. I fucking hate Ms.Jew-Barton, why on earth would I want to please her stupid ass by actually studying for the motherfucking Science tests? I have better fucking things to do like smoke myself into an oblivion with a cup of Pellegrino. Ha-ha-ha.

I should really be like that stupid whore Xiaxue and start a blog w/ all my whore pictures. Than I'd be able to make some money and live happily ever after in Paris. Perfecto!

Ahaha...I'm gonna go take a smoke break.

Love you you stupid fucks.

I'm watching Rebel Without A Cause, right now, with James Dean. Gosh, he is so good-looking! Isn't he? They don't make good all-American boys like that now. Anymore. Or probably never will. He has that whole gentleman vibe to him, it's really that European gentleman thing going on with a little American. Sigh...Now I wait.

I wish...

I really want this shade of lipstick. Even though it may look ridiclious to the human eye it's actually quite a fetching color on me. It's because I think you need a certain dewy tone, which I have btw, that sets the color off right. It's Lancome btw, If you're wondering.

Today I got a haircut and it's purrrfect! It kind of looks like Anna Wintour's except not as blunt and prettier. I got it done at Yosh Salon on Maiden Lane, my Mom paid for it, and it took the girl an hour and a half to do it but it came out fantastically. I'm not complaining.

I wish I lived in another place, like Europe, that accepts young adults, like myself, to go out without any restrictions. I feel so restricted and barred here in San Francisco. Everything has an age limit and everything is restricted. Things like drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes are not of any concern in places like Paris and Italy, and those are places I want to be.